hurt

missin a friend hurts more than missin a lover.
its just that she has been a friend of mine for a year or 2 if she didnt replace me over someone else.
i was hurt,not for a moment but for a lifetime till it heals.
i was jealous
damn me!
stupid me!
idiot me!
i never really realized it till i saw her eyes not happy with who she's with.
i know, i can feel it.
im never numb.it was all pretend.
not to feel something?
it was not that easy.
DAMN I MISS HER!
i miss it when we're together,
laughing,
cracking out jokes,
telling each other secrets,swearing not to tell it to anyone til we die.

wouldn't that be great?
but hey!i still have lots of friends.
friends who'd never leave me.they're the kind of people whom i dont want to give up.no!
:))