I DONT..

i dont wanna fall in love.
dont force me.

i dont want this heart to beat ever again,
but it keeps on resisting.

i dont wanna feel hurt all over
again.

i dont wanna come closer to you,
afraid i might fall for you.

im not sure about this feeling
but it keeps on haunting me.

i dont care about your flaws,
i dont care about the 'negatives' in your life.

i dont know what im saying but i think,
i just think,
im starting to fall.
and i dont want to fall hard.
coz i know i'll just hurt myself.
i know i'll hit myself hard on the ground.

i know there's something behind your eyes.
i know a meaning lies every time our eyes meet.

tell me am i illusioning?
am i wanting you to fall for me too?
NO I DONT WANNA FALL IN LOVE FOR THE 4TH TIME.
the hurt would last for a lifetime.

i sensed it you like someone else.
why am i jealous?
why do i act this way?
does it mean i've fallen?

I DONT WANT TO.
NOT ANYMORE.