Thursday, May 28, 2009

networks.

Friday, May 22, 2009

I DONT NEED.




I DONT NEED A MAN TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.
I END UP BEING FREE.
I DONT NEED A MAN TO MAKE ME FEEL GOOD
I GET UP DOING MY THING.
I DONT NEED A RING AROUND MY FINGER
TO MAKE ME FEEL COMPLETE
SO LET ME BREAK IT DOWN.

lonelyhart: "dance of life"

lonelyhart: "dance of life"

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Tyra Banks



yea yea yea
I idolize her so much.
you know,if only i was a guy,
i'd have this big crush on her :D

a day with joanne and kym.karoke.*sing*










Wednesday, May 20, 2009

IT WAS JUST ANOTHER BLADE TO TWIST IN MY HEART.

it was just another blade to twist in my heart.

i will never forget the times we were okay.
the time you were telling me everything you liked about me.
the times i've received text messages from you.
the sleepless nights texting with each other.
the way you woke me up every 12 in the midnight with just a text.
the way i alarmed my phone just so i can wake up cause i know when i open myu eyes i can see your name in my inbox.
DAMIT!
i missed it.
:c

you've told me enough.you've promised me something i would never forget.
the promise that you would wait for my answer.
the promise that you would never ever leave me any where.

and there i was believing every shit you've promised.
just to tell you,
i've hold onto that promise 'till now.

now where did you put that promise you gave me?
gave it to another pretty girl?
i told you i wouldn't just believe in text messages.

i wasnt insecure 'till i saw her picture.
you were evil,satan,

YOU'RE ALL THE SAME!

see?
you never even had the chance to see me
now i know,
because you were seeing another one!

and then poof!
you're gone.
only to find out you have someone right now.
i've been waiting every night for your texts,your missed calls.
Also been waiting for you on ym.

i missed the times that we never had.
what happened to us,we were almost there.

i thought just that time that you're different from every man i've met.
there was no difference at all!

WAS IT MY FAULT?
believing you?
making you wait ?
thats why you got bored waiting and courted another girl?

you were never sincere
you were never true of your feelings
you were unsure

and the pain runs deep.

is it too late then?
to tell you i also loved you?

i miss you
kyle

SMILE



Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me


So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la


Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then i
Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my head
Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing
Me


So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face oooh

Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that i
Would choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go


So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la

from my multiply :)

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to text or message in YM. The ones who made it

through that
bitter hanging feeling, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to

have him walk back in months later like nothing ever happened.



We deserve something, and this is our tribute.


Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that

maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even

thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around

to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started

this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted

nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were

bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we

were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over

again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears

cried and dried all over again.
We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he

couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.
We trained ourselves

to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to

SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.
Here's for

the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say

that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might

be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great

girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last

time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder
"what if". The

ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said

that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it.

This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.



This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us

that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were

going too fast, he needs time." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how

stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces

again.
This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear

of an "I told you so."
The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake

ever allowing him into their hearts, and their dreams again.
We knew that we

deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call where he said he was

going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care

about us.
We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that FINALLY

realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart

again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into

anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve

better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing

more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.
Stay strong, and

remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather

than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how

long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When "your song" comes on the

radio, turn the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made

and tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don't answer

the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears,

the wasted moments and staying up all night



wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your

phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach

when you saw it wasn't him.
One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he

won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy

that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap!




And it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls, who fell

back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.




Just remember that in time, it will heal...Just dance with the music, whether it goes too slow or too fast.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

ALMOST.


Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel


I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

no, you cant play on broken strings.

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

-Nelly Furtado and James Morrison-

my inaanak.




Friday, May 15, 2009

take me AWAY.

I know we just got here
But i think it's time to go
I didn't want to believe it
But now i know
You know who just walked in
And he didn't come alone
I can't stand to see this
Get me home

Take me away
I'm gonna hurt somebody
Take me away right now
How could he say
(How could she say)
She wanted more
You better
Take me away
(Take me away)
Right now

I thought he was perfect
he thought I was perfect too
Perfect until he found someone new
Now I'm stuck here watching him
I can't take this abuse
What does this girl do that I can't do?

Take me away
(Take take me away)
I'm gonna hurt somebody
Take me away
(Take take me away)
Right now
How could he say
(How could he say)
he wanted more
You better
Take me away
(Take me away)
Right now
Whoa...

Take me away
(Take take me away)
I'm gonna hurt somebody
Take me away
(Take take me away)
Right now
How could he say
(How could he say)
She wanted more
You better
Take me away
(Take me away)
Right now

Take me away
Oh...
Take me away
(Take me away)
Right now
How could he say
(How could he say)
he wanted more
You better
Take me away
(Take me away)
Right now

Right now

NO WAY!


Definitely,
there'll never be another someone
who'd do me this kind of hurt i felt inside.

So much for all those promises you've told.
So much for those puppy-love feeling,
I've had enough!

I thought he was perfect,
he thought I was too.
But then,some things change.
Things change into something worse.
Worse than i could ever imagine.

How 'bout those promises?
Dont tell me those damn excuses over and over again.
I thought you were different,
but then at second thought,
you never were

cant keep promises huh?
EAT IT!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

no greater Love than this.


Before I knew Your Name,
You knew my ev’ry breath.
Before I found my way,
You knew my ev’ry step.
Before I knew everything that I need,
You gave it all to me.

No greater love than this…
That You should lay down Your life
For someone such as me;
I’d spend a lifetime wondering why.
The Beauty of Heaven
Is here in my heart
And I know there can be
No greater love than this.

I never understood
How merciful Love could be,
Until I felt His Flame
Light every part of me
And I would give everything that I am
’Cause I have been saved;
Yes, I have been saved!

No greater love than this…
That You should lay down Your life
For someone such as me;
I’d spend a lifetime wondering why.
The Beauty of Heaven
Is here in my heart
And I know there can be
No greater love.

The Beauty of Heaven
Is here in my heart
And I know there can be
No greater love...
For someone such as me.
No greater love...than this.